What matters

I came to you

and u came to me

and I saw the truth

as you too came to see

I saw the world

from your point of view

and you saw it too

from my point of view

And then it did'nt matter

whether the two views werent always the same

cos' I realized that there's no right one anyways

and that life is not a game

Or maybe it is

a never ending one

you win some , lose some' but

with us it doesnt matter

who lost ...or who won

Cos' We'll celebrate together

the victory of the winner

and sob eating icecream

for the loss of the other

And what matters is I realized

that I dont have to play alone

and that I can live with a view

not necessarily my own :) 

Easy

Its so easy to get lost

In the different shades of Green,
Some standing there,
Silent, Brooding,
as if they don't care anymore...

Some clinging onto fences,
Spilling, Spreading,
as if trying to reclaim what's not theirs' anymore..


Its so easy to get lost...


Its so easy to get lost,

In the different stares around,
Some incredulous,
Moving, Restless,
as if they just remembered something,


Some steely,
Hard, Calculating,
as if trying to estimate the worth of something


Its so easy to get lost

A students' prayer

oh dear Lord,

Let me not be scared
of  original thought,
for fear of it being wrong
for fear of it not being original
for fear of being considered crazy,

As I will always,
Cherish the thought i conceived
and fight for its existence.

For me to have that chance,
Please, let me not be scared


Let me not be scared,
of taking risks,
for fear of it crushing me
for fear of regrets
for fear of losing control

As I shall always,
be aware,

For me to have no what ifs
Please, Let me not be scared


Let me not be scared,
of taking challenges,
for fear of being overturned
by obstacles
for fear of not having enough strength


As I may or may not succeed always,
and yet I shall conquer some


For me to break those shackles,
Please, Let me not be scared

scared

I am Scared

Scared,

of being dependant,

on none but you

of being crazy,

when not with you

Scared,

of losing this feeling,

in some time

of this going away,

in some time

Scared,

of consequences,

and of hurting you

of consequences on me ,

of hurting you

Scared,

of being involved,

and discovering,

that its not what i wanted

of being involved,

and discovering,

that its not what you wanted.

I am Scared

A seed

Had a ground,

trees everywhere, but no shade

Leaves everywhere, but no fruit

Nourished the ground sometimes

ignored it too

felt this disappointment

as if there's nothing I could do

But always, a glimmer of hope was there

Flowers sprouted, and smiled at me

but a blizzard came, 

and the happy flowers died suddenly

the flowers came again, 

so did the blizzard,

Leaving the ground ,

icy cold and dead

Then came a gardener,

with assurance of fruits

and flowers too

but some how that seemed

too good to be true

As in life,

things that seem too good

don't turn out like that

The gardener was a monster

who wanted to cut all trees

and make the ground flat

Getting rid of the gardener 

came at a price

the ground perimeters needed to be sealed

with wires sharp enough to slice

Saw a seed now

trying to break its way into the ground

should I throw it away?

or leave where it was found

Am I ready to

raise my hopes again,

and watch them die

or should I be more careful,

the gardener was dealt with,

but next time i might not be so lucky

But does that mean,

I would never give life a chance

to sprout and flower and fruit

or should I surrender 

and maybe lose all trees in pursuit

Its a decision,

I am not yet ready to take

I ll keep the seed 

where there are no trees in its wake

Maybe flowers will come

and i'll see them fruit just fine

Maybe there'll be shade 

with the leaves this time

Random introspection

Asked a question to my mind,
What would the world look like
from outside my body
What would I look like
from outside my body

Would the world be cruel, and selfish
and uncaring and biased
in all ways when they look at me?
Or would they be caring and gentle
and see me as I am?


Would I see my friends snigering,
laughing at me behind my back?,
or would they remember me,
and laugh with me together?


Mind replied
I am but a part of you,
and cant tell you what
anything looks like when You're not you

But Within me I have
a list of people who judge
every moment, every step u take

a list of people who respect
the way you behave


I can tell you about people
who pretend to be your friends,
but dont know you at all

and about people
who know you well and
are ready to answer your call


How the world seems to others
is beyond me
But from within you I can tell
its full of endless possibilities

Thinking how the world or you seem
to the rest of the world
is an exercise in futility
Doing what you care about,
is something you should do
even if it takes all eternity

new year 2012

aaj akhri raat hai 2011 ki
aur aj dekha jab maine chand


aasma me sunder wo
aadha hi tha aaj

shayad ishara hai ye bhi
aane wale us kal ka.
jo kal aaj ho jaega
aur is aaj ka
jo kal yunhi kho jaega


aaj hai sunder par
isme kuch adhoora hai
aane wale kal me jise
milkar karna pura hai!

jo sach na ho saka khwab aaj
koshish phir kal karenge
ek naya din, ek naya saal
milker sang chalenge............